Mama’s Blues

Mama, you used to tell me
When I was born my eyes were blue
It’s my limbal ring that’s blue mama,
You only caught it once but it’s always been blue
My eyes were always brown traced with navy blue
You saw it once through a reflection of a ray of light
When you laid your first eyes on me with new lenses and sight
It’s still the same blue mama,
But you can only see it blue
If you saw them with light shining through
Mama, I learned a deep secret from life and I’d whisper to you
Mama, you can learn to see beauty everywhere around you too
You speak of those eyes so often
You can’t help but see that it’s beautiful too
You saw them blue from the love of your light radiating through
My eyes were blue under your light because your heart was full
I know you caught a glimpse of your own reflection too
You felt so beautiful inside and your heart was so full
That’s the secret and gift of life I want to give to you
When your heart is full you’d open new eyes
You’d see all the signs and the clues
Mama, the secret is to keep your heart full
Mama, the skies isn’t always just black and blue
If you catch the sunrise at dawn or a sunset after noon
You’d see what I mean,
You’d know how it feels
Mama, when you open your eyes at five and look outside
Mama, it doesn’t matter if it’s day or night
You’d catch magnificent hues of yellow-orange light
Sometimes bold streaks of red and even dark magenta bright
Mama, you’re going to open new eyes
Mama, come and play with me outside
There’s much more than just shades of hues in sight
Mama, if you listen hard enough
Mama, the birds on the trees will sing a song for you
You’d get to hear my favorite tune
Mama, if you lift your head up to take a look at the skies
Mama, you’d see something magical in between them too
Cause that’s where the secret double rainbow lies,
That’s where your pot of gold will begin to entice
Mama, please wipe your tears and you can see it too
Mama, the rain’s going to stop for you
You only have to make sure your heart is full
But mama, I’ve got to go now
I’ve been silently collecting my nuggets of gold
It once felt like my heart had a gaping hole
Because of all that I was told
Mama, I’m all grown up now
My wasted heart has learned and saw
Amidst the blazing sun and freezing cold
Mama, no one can tell me now
How I should prune and hold
All the wonderful seeds that I’ve sowed
Come take a look into my garden mama,
You’d see all the overgrown weeds are pulled
There are only scented blooming flowers now
Come take a look into them mama
You’d see they’re still brown,
Circled with a dark ring of navy blue
Mama, I’ve figured out how
So please dry your eyes now
I don’t blame you when your heart’s not full
But mama, I need to go home now
I’ve got my chance to cash in my gold
In there, awaits my love to unravel and behold
It’s been waiting within unconditionally,
I’ve finally learned to meet my soul
I finally learned the hard way,
That my heart’s always been whole
Mama, I hope one day you’d see it too
Mama, you can do that once your heart is full
When your heart is truly whole,
The world would be yours to behold
You can find all the riches,
You can start mining the gold
But mama, I haven’t seen your heart full since that day
I’d keep hearing you say,
I used to have them blue
Mama, it’s your heart that’s not full
Mama, my eyes are still blue
I looked into the mirror today,
They’re still the same pair of eyes
Mama, don’t cry when you don’t see me around
Mama, don’t fear whenever you feel blue
When your heart starts to make your world feel small,
Just remember those big blue eyes you once saw
Those blue eyes you remembered will sing you a peaceful lullaby
You can find the secret pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
Because every single nugget of gold inside hides
All the infinite abundance you can ever have in sight
Mama, I’m whispering the secret to you again tonight
Mama, your heart was unconditionally whole that night
Mama, your heart was brimming full
You can see your own reflection
The same way you saw those newborn eyes
You were the one who gave me that final piece of clue
Mama, your heart can still be full
Mama, you can see it in your own eyes too
Mama, my eyes came from you
“Mama, I’ve been silent for too long,
I was always afraid I’d say something wrong,
I therefore never learned how to prepare and perform my song.
No one heard when I used to scream and hide,
I know just how that struggle and silence frights
a voice that has been hyped to lose all of its strength.
Mama, somewhere in this world,
I know someone is hurting inside
I can’t remain silent while I hide from view.
I’ve found the words that’d start to stop the mourn,
So the world can start to learn the lyrics to my song
from all of the errors we’ve observed, heard, and experienced firsthand.
The words to my song is going to carry hope and light,
I’ve learned the secret behind writing the lyrics late at night
When you feel like you’ve lost the battle, it might revive you.
They could break the covered sticks and stones,
On the waking trail of hardened and broken hearts alone
We could start mining for these icy abandoned holes.
Mama, healing hearts can come alive to ignite a spark,
Renew a lease of life with a new beat of sunlight warmth
If I could find the right words to calm the rhythm that I so badly misjudged.
But mama, you’ve never once heard the lyrics,
Because you’d choose the silences of my song
Sounds that you think don’t belong are heard over laughter.
Mama, I hope someday you’d find relief from yourself,
When you come to see the love I’ve learned to give myself
You’d hear the words I once attempted to practice speaking to you.
Mama, I’m going to stop biting my tongue now because I’m strong,
My heart’s going to weep one last time for all the wrongs
When I start to reveal the song’s past hurts.
Mama, they’re going to learn every word in my tune,
When my eyes are done crying for the final time and I’m gone
My song’s lyrics will be widely remembered.
Mama, one day you’d desire to grow out of my old silence,
When you hear the echoes of my melody in the distant sirens
I can finally sing and reveal my new song now that I’ve mastered the skill.”